okay. furget about the last post. i was insane to write it. i dunno wad came over me la. so ppl who read it, jus furget about it okay? but i decided not to delete aniwae, cuz i wanted to remind myself of tat moment. but sum parts were true though. i do feel empty and lonely inside. i do feel unwanted by ppl. example? today jus quarrel with jia yu. dunno whether considered not la. but i tink so. not tat i wan to quarrel with her lorz. it's jus maybe, maybe only, i lost control of myself. i dun blame her for everything la. but she get pissed off jus because i talk. i mean i said sorri ler mah. i admit i wad wrong for talking sho much. but she dun haf to show me tat kinda attitude mah. i actually quite happi until she gave me tat face lor. if she's in a bad mood, fine. but dun aim it at me lor. everybody noes i now veri wad one. i nothing also will mood swing one ma. so dun do tat to me la. even if i noe my anger will only last one day. but i dunno whether she will hate me not la. depends on her la. i haf nthing to say lor. i am really sorri for talking la but at the same time, pls dun gimme attitude la. wadever. i am sad now. not even pissed but sad. i mean life is so ..... and it's jus the second week of school. wad the hell is going on lor. i am pissed with myself too. why am i trying sho hard to fit in? i am not myself today. totally not myself. i tink i am becoming like min yu. i jus checked sumting. i tink i am actually suffering frm mild depression. i hope i do den i will stop worrying about such stuffs. i am so drifting away frm my frenz. i noe i am not tat nice and fun to be with la. but i really am trying. trying sho hard until i am not me. okay. wadever. i am crapping. furget it la. nobody cares. nobody noes how i feel. maybe sum. but dey still treat me for granted. woah. i tink i really haf depression. wad's the cure for depression aniwae? i dunno lehz... okay. telling myself, no mood swings.no mood swings. haha. wadever. jus now went back home with canphylia, saw myron and a guy fighting. at first, we tot it nothing. den myron wad like so fierce den de was like really using force. in other words, he was like really fighting. me and canphylia was like "OMG! stOP! stOp!" den turn out to be wad? dey were jus playing. jus playing. u noe. tat's wad dey told us after we embarrassed ourselves. my gosh, den everybody was watchin us lor. me and canphylia was like, " okay. fine." and we both were laughing like shit. so shitty lor. i am so not happi now liao. maybe i hafta cheer myself up. and the worst thing. i can't find my camera. tat's is like my best laughing kit lor. and i cannot find it. okay, wadever la. i tink i stop here. ltr ppl say i wad. buaizz.... muackx. and chiilll.... =)